Wednesday, October 10, 2018

In Response to Your Response

You think you know,
and drive your sharp disappointment
through the narrow tunnel I echoed in,
yet you didn't look around.

Don't bother to ask or understand.
My fear was far away.
All you saw were the numbers, etched in hard ink,
and it was all business.

Just ask, don't accuse
to push my anxiety and fear.
Fear for future, crimes never committed
because they pretended,
but my tears were genuine.

Understand.
That's all I ask
before you act.
I've dealt with ghosts beyond your realm.

Out of fear of your judgement,
scared of your disownment,
anxious from their demands,
I made an equally careless action.

Don't look at your numbers,
look at me and ask.

Thursday, September 6, 2018

Capsule


A marble and garden capsule
fills with life and death.
Plantation that will thrive
or be neglected.

Guilt builds with neglect.
I witness fates too soon,
severed from this world:
a fraction of reality.

I could've tried harder,
entering brick and wood,
but I only stared through glass,
seeing fate fall on flora.

Taxing, it is, to keep up.
Routines intertwine,
taking away priorities,
building unnoticed savagery.

...but she stays close,
closest in the world,
closer to my soul,
set on destination and clarity.

Here, inside,
everything dies,
neglect or not.

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Skeleton Keys Kept


A porcelain jar of skeleton keys
go to nothing,
lost their use in time.

Dusty jar
cracked
on the dresser.

Reminds of hatred like keys
unlocking nothing of use,
spreading rusty words.

Leaving a taste on tongue
of metallic opposition:
you and your orange ash.

Ignorance keeps old keys
no longer relevant,
but recycled into the dusty jar
cracked
on the dresser.

The rust continues on,
spreads
metallic ignorance
from your mouth
so used to the taste.

Thursday, August 16, 2018

The Art Form of Envy

The red sun rakes the grass,
caressing the metal holding the hefty
tabletop desk,

where he vigorously scribbles his visions
on the paper, bowing and stretching
to the breeze,
held down by his left,
pictures etched with his right.

Lead whiskers coordinated on the page,
his hand blends shapes in the page,
morphed from ideas in his mind.

He is occasionally mindful
of the vast meadows
surrounding him,
preserving him and his
flavor of the arts.

Sitting in my small black box,
this pinhole camera reflects
his perfections on the wall
like filming April Fools
onto my forehand.

I try and fail
to imitate his art
like an ape imitating
human lifestyle.
I am trapped
in the zookeeper’s cage.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Of Faith and Fate

I gaze over terra, beyond the boundaries
Of the swaying tree lines and washing winds,
that divide fantasy from reality,
and vigorously choke wicked courage from my lips.

I stand steady on the spilling cliff
of sweltering memories,
screaming death and defiance,
stealing faith with condemning fate,
drifting off the path of elegance and empathy.

I regain footing in free fall,
and gawk at the orange warning and smoke
exploding on the canvas beyond Hemlock and Hickory,
a reminiscence of Renaissance, Raphael, and Athens.

In this deep reminder of responsibility,
I drift on impaired air currents,
reluctantly cradling me above the forest barricades,
and into the portrait of beauty and truth.

I stand steady on the spilling cliff,
and stare sarcastically at destiny and divinity:

Accolade to fear and misfortune.
Exigency of Faith and Fate.

I stand steady, dreaming of intangible portraits
In the blockades of endless space before me.

Monday, March 19, 2018

The Shrine

Based on
Fumée d'Ambre Gris
By
John Singer Sargent

A shrine is a holy place. It is a place that is highly revered by a culture. It is a person of historical significance. It is a library that holds all the knowledge of the world. In this case, it is a relic designed to challenge.

History holds many secrets of its culture. Buried in tradition, one can forget the true meaning of life. Sometimes it takes an important journey to discover the true meaning.

In an age of prosperity and marvelous landscapes, the temple stood as a monument to its people. This shrine was inside the most sacred temple of their land. When the tribal men and women of their city turned sixteen, they were required to enter the tall marble halls for the first time in their life. Under the temple’s golden dome, the young men and women traversed a long and seemingly empty hall. A carpet with vibrant red and white circle patterns guided the young seekers. Their eyes beheld a diminutive object, steeped in simplicity. Once they cast gaze on the shrine in the center of the temple, they were required to uncover its mysteries, the test of true adulthood.

On this day, Nasreen was hesitant to take the ultimate test. It was her fourteenth birthday, the proper test age. She stood in front of the temple that she had been solicitous of since she was little. When she was six, she even tried to sneak across the golden entrance but was caught and severely punished for her crime. Ever since, fear grew stronger within her. A decade, to Nasreen was a long time to consider what was sacred about the shrine. Was it worth her punishment? Curiosity colored her agitation. She was reluctant to cross the threshold of the portal leading into the alabaster sanctuary.

Centuries ago, a group of nomads discovered fertile hills hidden deep within the vast arid desert. Mysterious waterways ran underneath the hills, providing the proper nutrients for the soil. The nomads knew that this land would be perfect for growing food for their people.  As they travelled deeper into the hills, they discovered a rich oasis with beautifully clear water. It was perfect for drinking. They did not make this discovery without a little help. They called it the “gift of the gods”: swift-flying red birds, the guardians of the fertile land. 

The nomads saw the birds as the messenger of the gods, welcoming them to a new land. They saw it as an opportunity to settle. They began to build a thriving society by the fertile ground. With the new abundance, they began raising families without the worry of the harsh desert and limited resources. They were grateful for the opportunity to grow and prosper. The nomads could finally get the most out of their fragile lives.

Soon after, the temple was built as a dedication to their new-found bounty. They didn’t want their descendants to forget the message from the gods, bestowing such blessings. The temple was later used to teach the young about the importance of the land. Generations passed. The message was passed down.

The day had finally arrived for Nasreen. She was the first of her generation to learn what it means to take responsibility as an adult. Though fear stricken to enter sacred ground, there was talk that Nasreen would lead a new generation. Nasreen was always driven to stand at the front lines. Her peers looked up to her. It was finally time to prove that she was a leader among the youth.

Dressed in a weighty, white robe, Nasreen stepped into the marble halls. The sunlight reflecting off of the golden silk sleeves and silver neck-piece instantly disappeared as she stepped inside. The sacred presence of the temple overwhelmed her. She kept her face covered with the heavy white material and her eyes to the ground. The vivid circular and diamond designs of the carpet pattern entranced her. It guided her to her destination.

It was the shrine. It was forged with the richest of polished silver. The base consisted of as simplistic design that almost resembled that of a vase. The shrine increased in width as it increased in height. Near the top of the shrine, the silver began to weave together in a spiraling pattern. The spirals merged together to create the crown. A round hood protected the top of the crown. The hood’s tip was molded into a circular handle.

Nasreen was cautious. She studied the design for several minutes. Nasreen was surprised at the small size of it. Her heart began to beat faster as she thought to touch it. She never expected something so significant to be so small.

She wondered what contents laid under the hood. Her hands began to shake as a new fear rushed through her body. How could an extraordinary revelation be made with such a tiny object? She wondered why it only sat on the floor. 

Why wasn’t an alter built for it? Maybe it’s not necessary, she thought. Its reputation was great enough. The temple was constantly discussed in Nasreen’s city and needed no introduction. However, the contents of the temple were shrouded in mystery. The elders did not talk about them out of respect and the children feared the possibilities. Nasreen was the only child ever brave enough to attempt entry when she was young. Now that she understood the temple’s significance, was she prepared to face the challenge?

Nasreen pushed all the doubts aside as she gently reached for the handle with her right hand. She gently clutched the lid with her index finger and thumb. Slowly she lifted it off of the tray. Her eyes widened at the sight.

It was the remains of a small bird. Nasreen was very familiar with its species. It had been a symbol of her people for many generations. It was the messenger of the gods. Flying over the city, the people were entranced by the bird’s majesty. They were always high above the fertile lands, a beacon of their home. Why were the bones of this specific bird placed in the shrine?

Nasreen thought of death. Is this a lesson about life and death? She wondered. Nasreen gently stroked the smooth skeletal remains of the delicate creature. Through touch, she began to feel a connection with this gentle race. She remembered her childhood. Her parents once kept a majestic young bird at her home after it had been injured. It sat in a cage and sang beautiful songs to Nasreen. As time passed, the bird’s wounds healed and its songs became more joyful. However, the bird soon became restless and the songs became sadder. 

Nasreen understood that the bird wished to be free. It wanted to spend its life with salvation and prosperity. Nasreen was instilling hopelessness in a bird that was supposed to be the city’s symbol of hope. A messenger must perform its task. One day, she snuck the cage outside and released the bird. Immediately, it whistled joyful tunes as it joined other birds that were passing by. The birds soared high above the city.

 The pieces began to fall into place. She understood the meaning of the shrine. Nasreen placed the lid back on the shrine and began to slowly walk back down the pathway. Those poor, fragile creatures, she thought. It’s amazing to think that an animal so frail...so susceptible to pain, death, injury...could be the symbol of prosperity and a servant of the gods. As she exited the temple, she thought back to the beautiful caged bird. Its beautiful song could still be heard from outside the temple. It was a careless creature, fulfilling its short life. It was as if it knew...nobody is immortal.


Sunday, March 11, 2018

Inventory of Our Words

They crack the safes
hidden in our portrait of communication.
an  intercourse of social science,
flooding the streets of civilized city structures,
isolating outstretched pastures beyond urban diction.

We paint the portraits
of expressive thinking.
They map the blueprints
for oratorical robbery.

The rural fires of our desires are diminished.
The ashes scraped into our
six foot deep imagination asylums.

They stock coffins of our ideas
and do inventory on our intentions.

The sky box is shrinking slowly.
A blanket is draped over in refusal.

We stand inside
Eyes up
Heads cocked
In awe.

The sun sinks behind the dirt piles
crafted by spade shovels
that tear away at the grey soil,
like the escape artists
that tear away at our grey matter.

Anchoring our escapes,
we stand in the burial grounds of our words.